I Wish ....

I am hopelessly smitten by a few adventure ideas. They are perhaps my ultimate desires this lifetime. I feel a sudden surge of energy run through my nerves even as I write about them. This blog post is an effort to archive them:

1. SKY DIVING

I can imagine myself all packed and wrapped with parachute strings and tied to my partner, standing at the exit opening of an aeroplane flying above the clouds at an altitude of 16,000 feet. I am fighting against strong gusts of chilling wind while mustering up enough courage to jump for my life. I have butterflies in my stomach and can hear my heart pounding aloud. I take a glance below and what do I see? An entire blanket of beautiful white clouds, a broad macro view of landscape and water bodies. Do I really want to jump and fall? What if the parachute strings fail to open well in time? Barely am I able to pull myself out of these thoughts when I can feel a push from behind and I am tearing through the layers of thin air and clouds at a terminal velocity of 200 km/hour. Whooooooooooa ...... what fun!! I am experiencing the blissful state of weightlessness. The idea of hitting the ground to death churns my stomach and I scream for life just before the parachute strings are opened and we make a safe landing. Phew! What an adventure that was.

2. KAILASH MANSAROVER YATRA

My parents have undertaken the holy journey to Kailash Mansarover twice their lifetime. Mount Kailash is considered to be the holy abode of Lord Shiva and Mansarover is the divine lake right below it. They have experienced both the extremes of human life experience, that is near-death as well as heavenly interventions. My parents were lucky enough to spend a night in a tent on the banks of the lake and have witnessed a few supernatural occurrences which they had shared exclusively with me. I have immense faith in Lord Shiva and HIS grace has saved me from many tough situations in life. I shall experience the peace and divinity being in such close quarters with HIM. The placid view of the clear waters and the reflection of the Kailash Parbat in the backdrop of a moon lit night with me chanting "Om Namah Shivayah" while gazing at the breath taking display of mother nature making me lose my identity. Amen!!

3. PARA GLIDING

Oh! How I wish I could fly like a bird .... gliding effortlessly through the skies with my wings. I can feel the fresh breeze run through my face, smell the bountiful air and witnessing the beauty of landscape below. I feel so powerful being equals with the mighty peaks and valleys. I am perched over the parachute seat and firmly held by the parachute belts. I can see that raging river get humbled below crawling like a serpent ..... the dense forests crushed like a green living room carpet. I can reach out to the blue skies with my hands. I am singing aloud all my favorite tunes. I feel so omnipresent and powerful .... I am God!

4. NORTHERN LIGHTS

Technically known as Aurora Borealis, this phenomenon has captured my wild imagination since childhood when I first read about it in an encyclopedia. The similar phenomenon occurring at the Southern Hemisphere is called Aurora Australis. It is marked by fluorescent coloured clouds, arcs or streaky patterns all across the night sky restricted only to the Northern Hemisphere of the earth. It can be viewed best from all the Scandinavian countries and some parts of Northern Canada in the winters. A lot of scientific explanation is available all over internet which can leave one confused. In my little knowledge, auroral displays are associated with Solar Winds interacting with the Earth's Magnetic Field. The former is a result of Solar Flares(violent eruptions on Sun's surface) generating charged particles and molecules into the space reaching getting attracted to the Earth's Magnetic Field thereby releasing energy in the form of auroras. It also results in sharp variations in the earth's magnetic field (maximum at poles and minimum at equator) causing Magnetic Storms. During these storms, the auroras may shift from polar regions to the equator creating an illusion of multi-coloured traveling clouds.

Anyway, not going much into the scientific reasons let me come directly to the point.

It is awesome to witness this occurrence and I wish to chase the auroras right till it ends while it travels during Magnetic Storms. The chase can be very challenging as it requires one to trek endlessly in tough climatic conditions. But, the experience is worth the effort.

Imagine the dark night sky turn into a deceiving day skyline with beautiful patterns all over creating a heavenly panoramic view. I would lose myself into this divine sight.

If only ............

From K~

Dear K~,

I really want to "Thank You" for your hand made Wedding Anniversary Greeting card you gifted us. I am placing it here on this blog to preserve it forever .... for you to read and cherish when you grow up. I really love you K~ and look forward to many more such hand made cards and hand written letters. Reading them over and over again will indeed be a pleasure till I am alive!

I also want to let you know

That you are special in my life

That you have enriched my being .... made me a Mother

That you have bonded Papa and Me into a family forever

That you have redefined the meaning of Love and Togetherness

That you have been my Lighthouse guiding my Life Boat in times of Darkness

That your thoughts and images always arouse endless love within me

That you are truly and absolutely a worthy child

GOD BLESS YOU

Love and Prayers

Mama

K~'s Discourses

I have always been amazed by the adaptability kids display .....

I have been busier than usual in my daily home chores these days and this transformation in me has not escaped K~'s nascent observation. Well, that is not enough! She has taken a step forward and makes herself available to help me out with a few basic tasks without me even asking for it. To name a few, some self-assigned jobs of K~ are refilling empty drinking water bottles standing on a chair beside the kitchen counter, washing daal, rice, vegetables with the cold running water in the kitchen sink (I do the final washing myself though), setting washed dishes back on the respective racks, tidying toys in our bedroom, following me with a duster in her hands while dusting, folding dry clothes etc. I am touched each time I see her tiny hands and fingers under the cold running water. I feel truly blessed when her empathetic gestures reach out in an effort to assist me during my busy moments.

And then, there are moments when she is in a philosophical state of mind trying to inspire me with her motivational discourses in her Papa's absence who is on official tour these days .... perhaps feeling all the more responsible for my happiness and well being. :-D Ha Ha!!

Last night as I lay alone with K~ on the bed trying to put her to sleep desperately with the intention of reading an unfinished book later, my little girl was bothered with the quieter than usual surroundings sans the bedtime games she plays with her Papa .... Story Reading, Pillow Fighting, Tummy Tickling, Word Power etc. etc. Then, she assumed that I was sad just because I was silent and tired by the end of the day. I exploited her emotions just to hear some caring words from my tiny angel.

Quoting a few lines from the conversation below:

K~: Mumma, are you sad?

Mumma: No, Betoo. I am not sad at all. Why do you ask?

K~: Because you are so quiet. Why are you not talking to me? Are you angry?

Mumma: No. I am just tired and want to sleep. Why should I be sad? Do you love me, K~?

K~: (sitting upright on the bed with a renewed energy bout)

Of course, Mumma. I love you and everyone loves you. Papa loves you, Baba loves you, Dadi loves you, Dadu loves you, Bua loves you, Mugu loves you, Maashi loves you, Mesho loves you....... Blah Blah Blah. Don't they?

You should never be sad, Mumma! You are so beautiful and Papa married you because he loves you (Jeez! He never reiterated that to me himself, in such serious overtones in the last ten years of marriage, I muttered under breath unable to control my hysterical laughter.)

;-)) Ha Ha!

Well.... (K~ offended at my response) .... he really told me that a few days ago when he was showing me that red album with your marriage photographs. You looked lovely Mumma ..... (pause)

The flowers on your hair, the green saree and so many jewels .... Mumma, tum bahut acchi lag rahi thi. Aur Papa bhi bahut acchey lag rahey the .... par tum zyaada! ..... (pause again)

Mumma, who will marry me? I want to look nice too on my marriage day.

Mumma: Well, a boy will marry you only after you grow up .....become as big as I am. And, Yes! I will dress you up beautifully on your wedding day.

K~: Oh, Mumma! Can't I marry tomorrow? Papa always brings me something nice each time he is back from Boombay. Call Papa and tell him to bring me my "Husband" this time when he is back from office work. Oh, please Mumma, please please please .... I want to talk to Papa right now!!!!!!!!

(K~ in tears by now wanting to speak to Papa)

I get up and hug her tightly in an effort to put her to sleep. Finally, she does so, after 15-20 minutes and much resistance.

Phew!!!

Moral of the story: Never ever brush K~'s emotions casually especially when handling the front alone. :-D

Sir Isaac and Me!

Life is tough these days ....

All the domestic pleasures that I had been addicted to over the last few months terminated abruptly. My daytime help who assisted in babysitting, cooking, washing and cleaning went on annual leave .... my regular cleaning maid who mopped, swept and washed dishes left as she had a land dispute to resolve back at her village. The much awaited visit of my parents-in-law coincided with this sudden lack of resources and the weather turned chillier than ever before freezing my hands when working and making it nearly impossible for me to wake up early in the mornings. All at one go!

And then, there was this three year old addiction of Internet .... FB gossips, Website Management, Chats and Blogging which suffered a severe setback for almost a week!

So, today I decided to fight my depression against all odds. I literally squeezed out time and drove myself relentlessly to work on this laptop .... I updated myself on FB visiting many friend profiles, worked on freelunch.in for an hour, chat with all my best pals for one more and wrote this blog late at night in between doing the dishes, cooking, babysitting, cleaning and washing. My back hurt big time but was negated by the sheer sense of confidence and satisfaction of having been able to use my mind constructively which was missing in the last one week.

I wonder why Sir Isaac Newton came to my mind a few moments back while peeling an apple for K~. Suddenly, I felt that the Newton's Laws of Motion truly summarize my state of affairs and here is my adapted version of it .....

Newton's First Law of Motion

"I shall continue to remain in a state of depressing Rest or domesticated Uniform Motion unless an external positive Force is applied on me."

How true! I had to force myself mentally and physically to actually think on blogs, website database and net socialising. My mind would refuse to think and body would yearn to sleep in the warmth of a soft quilt. I would keep getting distracted by K~'s justified nagging to the tune of 6-7 toilet calls, 4-5 hunger calls and endless playing requests which I had to attend to while reacting to an irritating whistle of the pressure cooker.

Newton's Second Law of Motion

"This positive Force applied to move me in the right direction is directly proportional to my Mind Mass and Acceleration."

This positive Force makes me work in the right direction. The Mind is better off without any Mass which is defined by my emotional baggage of increased workload and notions! My mental pace aka Acceleration in the right direction slows down if I let my Mind Mass go heavy. So, to make sure I accelerate well with a constant minimum Force I have to keep myself light on my thoughts sans any anger or negative feelings.


Newton's Third Law of Motion

"For every positive action of mine there is an equal and opposite negative reaction."

There was this terrible back pain I suffered by the end of the day. And while chatting with one of my best pals, I had a terrible spat which kept me mentally disturbed for a good two hours. I could not take my bath till late in the evening and my curry paste burnt thanks to my pre-occupied state of mind! So, there were enough negative reactions to my positive self-improvement efforts.

Nevertheless, I would really like to thank Newton for making my mind work overtime and supporting my insane theories on human mind. I better get some sleep now before this almost crazy blog post gets any goofier!